Saying a hearty YES to diving into the uncertain, unknowable, unstable life has always led to openings beyond what I could imagine.
My partner and I came to France for a friend’s celebration on a whim. Our bodies like the field of Europe. When it was time to leave, we just didn’t feel right getting on our plane, so we sat there letting it go without us on it.
It was the first time I consciously and willingly let a plane ticket go waste- big for me!
We put all the possibilities on the table- staying another month or two years- we would do what felt right. Something wanted to be seen, and we were ready to meet it.
It’s so easy to trick ourselves into believing self-imposed limitation. It is so easy to forget and deny ourselves how free we actually really are. And we are here to re-member this, continually- to keep coming back to center.
There were a hundred reasons not to follow the call, and we could easily have indulged any of them, but that would have been betraying the emergent. And I am a willing slave to it.
And then our adventure began- as did synchronicities. And the thing about planning an adventure is, you can’t.
The journey through this newness has been full of elation, wonder, awe, love, beauty and grief, mourning, anger, longing, renewal and release. There is an expanded possibility.
As it happens, we are growing through Life.
I’m taking notes- yes the conscious journey isn’t easy, but it is full of resource to bring you safely through the storm- not unscathed but truly changed.
It will make you aware of, open and expand the crevices where you hide from yourself, from each other. And it has us.
“Thou shalt be a nomad!” Erik said when I asked in March, what the universe was trying to teach me with no home to be found after 6 months of looking, none of my visions coming manifest!
The message was pretty clear, and it has been showing us slowly, the shape it wanted to take.
I had planned to be settled in a house, establish a Come to Center space and be running a full workshop schedule by now. Oh and have a “regular routine” – something I keep tricking myself into believing I want, when in reality, I don’t!
And I am SO glad I am not!
Exploring the insides of a new culture and country, learning about it and me, swimming through my own darkness into the Sun and back everyday, is teaching me to listen anew. The ocean and my marriage are my biggest teachers right now.
When I am here-now, I belong everywhere and nowhere.
I forgot for a second how much of a nomad I am at heart, how much travel enriches us and the physical immersion into new landscapes changes our inner landscapes…aah yes.
My work is an expression of my Life, the thing about working with energy and consciousness is that they transcend construct, time and space. Come to Center is still funneling the transformation it needs to because I am transforming and growing.
Life is in sync. I’m learning so much, and enjoying it.
I feel truly homeless and fully at home in it.
I’ve never been a creature of habit.
I’m holding life preciously.
I’ve learned time and again it’s a good thing when my dreams don’t come true, because what does instead opens me up to higher possibilities in ways I could never conjure.
Thankful for the beauty of our world,
the love in our hearts,
and those around us,
the marvel of modern technology,
and the courage to choose freedom over comfort.
May it be so for each of us.
Thank you Life.