|I want to tell you a story that annihilated me into itself when I heard it. Maybe it will annihilate you too, and point you back to essence…|
A story that almost could be from the Mahabharata, that almost could have happened. But it didn’t.
And not the way I am going to tell it.
And none of this will matter if you feel where it points…
When Arjuna the great Indian warrior found himself on the battlefield of Kurukshetra, across from an army led by the very teachers who had trained him to become the finest archer in the land, full with brothers and uncles- the family he grew up with, he couldn’t lift his bow to fire the first arrow across the enemy lines.
He looked at their faces and his heart broke.
He knew his Dharma, he knew it had to be such- that he must engage this battle, for it was Divine will, and yet, as he gazed across the battlefield, he couldn’t fire at the enemy.
He just stood there, seeing them with this heart.
And when the very people he couldn’t shoot at, began firing arrows at him, something unusual happened: as the arrows they shot touched Arjuna, they began to transform into petals of Rose and fell at his feet.
You see, he had become love.
The enormity of his love was such that it dissolved everything that touched him into itself- back into the essence of the Everything- the core vibration of love.
And the harshness of the arrows, the hate, the anger, the violence that came at him, transmuted into Roses- the fragrant softness of love.
I feel at the core, this is life’s invitation to us all- to not just know love as a verb, but to become it…and in that becoming, make everything we meet part of the Love we are…
This is no small order. And yet, there are beings who join us here on Earth and embody this capacity.
This morning at 00:00, 1.22.22, in the temple he was initiated in as a young boy, Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh left his body. And as I sat feeling his essence in meditation, this story came up and again made me cry. Because Arjuna’s story also describes him.
Maybe you’ve met his teachings? Maybe this note will inspire you to…I hope it does.
I’ve always experienced Thich Nhat Hanh as the Boddhisattva of peace. I haven’t read any of his books, nor attended any of his retreats. Nor really followed his teachings closely.
But I have heard his voice name the Truth in us all.
I have seen his brush, make spirit into form.
I have felt the power and the radiance of his presence, melt me with love, into itself.
It’s a gift to be annihilated, over and over again in meeting a presence like his. The best way to honor him, of course, is to live aligned with the Truth in you.
You can read his parting words below, gently melting all the pointy arrows in me, into the tenderness of petals…
in celebration, in honor of a Life lived fully, his, yours and mine-
with big love,
“So listen, I am imagining.
I imagine that I awaken here on Sacred Mother Earth and marvel that I am alive and part of Creation
I imagine that Creation has given me a body that I respect and love.
I imagine that I will learn with my physical existence as long as I inhabit my body….
I imagine that women and men are equal.
I imagine that Life is challenge and giving-otherwise I would not be experiencing the presence of Life and Her Balance
I imagine that sex is natural (sacred) -and beautiful.
I imagine that all humans are born to Life to Learn and to Grow.
I imagine that I can live my Life and question my own experience and my Existence.
I imagine that I can help change the conditions of my world and my personal circumstances.
I imagine that I can listen to creation directly and that I need no interpreter.
I imagine that I can be my Self even in those times when I am pained by others.
I imagine that I am my own Authority and my own Teacher
I imagine that all information must be questioned by me.
I imagine that I can be the kind Teacher to myself.
I imagine that I am a Self-Responsible human who will teach others to care for our Sacred Mother Earth (with Beauty).”
Dancing ancestors into being
I had the privilege of dancing Oak Dance last weekend, my first step into Native American ceremonial space. It was time. I am American now.
Dancing to the Tree of Life to bring Light down into the earth for collective liberation. Dancing to celebrate Life, release and renew Self…While the core group danced in person, many of us were remote- satellites from our own lands.
Like every initiation, it was intense. And in the intensity, emerged revelation. It was a lovely experience and a chance to see my protection patterns in full swing!
I started out trying to do it right, by all the rules, dance in perfect sync with the group etc. rather than listening to and trusting what felt good and right to me was enough!
Much Tightness to start!
And then as I relaxed and surrendered.
To the ancient voices singing to the drum, to myself, my inner rhythm, to what is, to the intention rather than the form- there were deep openings.
I felt the field come alive.
As I danced my intention into being, I saw the late Lakota Chief, Ascended Master, holder of the light- Frank Fools crow’s face pop up in my mind.
Everything went silent.
I just cried and danced with abandon in that meeting for a while.
There are some beings who do that to me…Thich Naht Hanh, Paramhansa Yogananda…just the slightest brush with their field silences everything superfluous.
I return home.
And crying, dancing in the sound and the silence, I realized why they say not to take the lord’s name in vain…the power and grace of simple invocation is real. When we call a thing, a being, it comes.
It was beautiful.
I felt, in my bones, the force of everyone dancing our collective intentions into being around this country.
Know that a group of souls danced for YOU. Prayers for your highest good have been imbued in the air you breath…the breath of Life.
It was palpable and profound.
You see, no prayer is ever wasted- every prayer changes us and when we change, so does our world.
Maybe you have felt it too- the power of shared intention. Of community with healing purpose!
This is what MURMURATIONS is about, I remembered.
How lovely to be weaving sacred space into my every day. I feel blessed to give and receive the work that flows through me.
As we closed, I saw myself descend down into physical reality after three days in dreamtime!
I felt much gratitude for who I am, who I’m with, what we have done, and how we do it.
I am unmistakably different.
What a gift!
What a blessing!
And there is so much to grow into.
The power of my intention is weaving the dream for me to step into.
The Everything is listening.
Big breath in. Big breath out.
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These mantras touch something so core and essential in me, I cry every time I meet them.
Excerpted from Alice Bailey’s Treatise on the Seven Rays, each describes the energy of the constellation through which the Soul chooses to incarnate- our deepest longing and purpose, embedded in sound with such simple profundity.
Writing it here so I can re-member and access this knowing as I make my way into Esoteric Astrology!
THE WORDS FOR THE SIGNS OF THE ZODIAC
From the angle of form. Natural order. Retrogression through signs.
Pisces through the Signs to Aries
“And the Word said: Go forth into matter.”
“And the Word said: Let desire in form be ruler.”
“And the Word said: Let ambition rule and the door stand wide.
“And the Word said: Let food be sought.”
“And the Word said: Let Maya flourish and let deception rule.”
“And the Word said: Let choice be made.”
“And the Word said: Let matter reign.”
“And the Word said: Let other forms exist. I rule.”
“And the Word said: Let isolation be the rule and yet the crowd exists.”
“And the Word said: Let instability do its work.”
“And the Word said:. Let struggle be undismayed.”
“And the Word said: Let form again be sought.”
From the angle of the soul. Spiritual order. Correct passing through sign.
Aries through the Signs to Pisces.
“I come forth and from the plane of mind I rule.”
“I see, and when the eye is opened, all is illumined.”
“I recognize my other self and in the waning of that self I grow and glow.”
“I build a lighted house and therein dwell.”
“I am That and That am I.”
“I am the Mother and the Child. I, God, I matter am.”
“I choose the way that leads between the two great lines of force.
“Warrior I am, and from the battle I emerge triumphant.”
“I see the goal. I reach the goal and see another.”
“Lost am I in light supernal, yet on that light I turn my back.”
“Water of life am I, poured forth for thirsty men.”
“I leave the Father’s Home and turning back, I save.”
Life. Joy. Transcendence. Evolution…
“Success is easy. It’s going to be fun. It’s going to be given to you. It’s all around you.”
Excerpted from a Jenny Wade interview with Rich Murray. His words resound:
“If you are reading this, in this very moment success is certain. Success is easy. It’s going to be fun. It’s going to be given to you. It’s all around you. Everything you do that’s fun, that you really feel like doing, especially if it’s new, if it puts you in contact with people that feels precious and exciting and playful joyful and there’s a lot of uniqueness and there’s not a lot of rules and there’s a lot of things to choose from and your field of choice is expanding, then you’re being liberated from what you’re used to, you’re being freed from what you’re used to — go for it.
Go for it. You deserve it. You absolutely deserve it. You deserve to have it fast and easy, and you in turn will make it faster and easier for me and the others. No sooner than you learn something, you are teaching it the next minute. It’s fast. It’s chain-reacting, and it saves the entire world dream. Everything that is a mistake and is painful is innocent confusion. There’s no evil. You are not evil. You are not bad. And any time you become aware of your limits, that means you are already leaving them behind. Everything that you don’t like about yourself and other people is already being outgrown, whether you’re aware of it in yourself or in another, the ostensible problem is already the doorway into a rapid avenue of progress. It’s a revolving door and you spin through it effortlessly into the next stage beyond it. The body level, emotion level, mind level, spiritual level, technology level all become fluid, interactive, equivalent, merged in brand new ways. Laughter is the way. Wrong way is way. Failure and mistakes are the way for sure. And even ordinary success can be left behind, no matter how sophisticated and busy it may be. Just because you’ve always been such and such and done such and such and are really good at such and such doesn’t mean that you can’t grow within it and beyond it both in most amazing ways. And every mistake is discovered to be a source of tremendous wisdom and inspiration.
Death is not a serious problem, and it is never punishment. It’s just another opportunity, just like everything else, like every morning when you wake up. I am Richard Murray. Hear me. And hear yourself. Speak with joy, exuberance, authority, speaking freshly, making it up as you go on. Be certain of things and be uncertain about what you’re certain about.”
On life after delivery and life after death…
from the Hungarian writer, Útmutató a Léleknek:
In a mother’s womb were twin babies. One asked the other:
“Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.”
“Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?”
The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths. Maybe we will have other senses that we can’t understand now.”
The first replied, “That is absurd. Walking is impossible. And eating with our mouths? Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need. But the umbilical cord is so short. Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”
The second insisted, “Well I think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here. Maybe we won’t need this physical cord anymore.”
The first replied, “Nonsense. And moreover if there is life, then why has no one has ever come back from there? Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery there is nothing but darkness and silence and oblivion. It takes us nowhere.”
“Well, I don’t know,” said the second, “but certainly we will meet Mother and she will take care of us.”
The first scoffed. “Mother? You actually believe in Mother? That’s laughable. If Mother exists then where is She now?”
The second said, “She is all around us. We are surrounded by her. We are of Her. It is in Her that we live. Without Her this world would not and could not exist.”
Said the first: “Well I don’t see Her, so it is only logical that She doesn’t exist.”
To which the second replied, “Sometimes, while in silence you focus and really listen. You can perceive Her presence, and can hear Her warm presence and loving voice, calling down from above.”